“I don’t give a good goddamn if it pours when it rains.”
That’s the first line of the spoken word piece I’ve recited over and over and over again this week. Every time I say it I believe it, or at least in my own ears I sound like I mean it. But later I find that it’s a struggle to just relax in a chair and savor the sitting and I have to face the possibility that this flood of stuff affects me more than I’m willing to let on. I was a mess last night. It’s been a helluva a week.
There was V for Vendetta on Thursday, my Cardiff rockstar birthday on Friday, London acclaim on Saturday and a long hard ride home in a school bus seat designed for a five-year-old bottom on Sunday. Today I interviewed for a job that, oddly enough, utilized my obscure knowledge of Viktor Ullman’s operas, I taught my two tutorials (and screened the infamous “Crying Indian” Keep America Beautiful commercial) and somehow Matt, Zoe and I managed to keep the Refugee Poets night from spiraling into a fiasco. It was extremely successful. We raised a ton of money. There were no real hitches. I was proud and photos should be up on the site later this week. My only regret was that there wasn’t time for me to read the Togolese poet’s poem.
Now I just want to sleep. I’m so tired. It’s only drizzling outside right now.
Here’s the poem the refugee wrote about Russ and Marybeth and Semantics and I, and all the others taken into police custody at Krisan on Dec 8, 2005:
Why Do You Mistreat Them?
by Anonymous. Translated by Dr David Murphy, University of Stirling
Why do you mistreat those who defend us?
Why do you dishonour our philanthropists?
Why do you chase away our guests?
Why do you threaten those who come to help us?
Why do you arrest those who intervene on our behalf and seek to liberate us?
Why do you mistreat them?
You arrest and you humiliate the “Voice” of the abandoned
He who came to serve and to save humanity
you stand in the way of his mission and corner him
Who are you, why do you fights against the messengers of salvation?
You who persecrute God’s humble servants?
I cannot understand what leads you to destroy your brother.
You terrify your brother who has done nothing to you,
who begs you to do away with our troubles and our woes
Who has come to relieve the suffering of those rejected by society.
Don’t mistreat them.
Don’t mistreat them.
Put an end to the atrocities.
Put an end to intimidation.
We demand our liberty.
Don’t harass them.
They have come to bring us peace.
The police, you have done us harm.
You stir up trouble in our camp.
You chase away our visitors.
You leave us isolated.
You marginalise us.
You control our movements.
The police, you have done us harm.
You prevent us from living.
You stand in the way of our happiness.
You stand in the way of those who came to help.
You terrify the generous.
You prevent the from sitting with us
You prevent them from speaking with the refugees
You endlessly harass them
Thursday, 8 Dec 2005
Was the day you hunted our friends
The three diplomates who watched over us.
You threatened and arrested them.
Before the eyes of the world, the police threaten pilgrims and wise men.
You forced them into the car
Without respect and without asking them who they were
You terrorised them without seeking to find out why they had come to visit the refugees.
You did not allow them to say good bye, not even to glance over their shoulders as they left.
You clearly display your xenophobia.
You confirm your nastiness and your bad will towards us.
This afternoon you arrest the journalists, who defend our human rights
You root through their bags by the roadside
You prevent them from visiting hte refugees.
You cut off all contact between us.
You threaten any refugee who greets them or tries to speak to them.
You arrest them without rhyme or reason.
You lead them into your office
Where the interrogation begins
You destabilize the entire camp?
You make us ill at ease.
The Americans and the Canadians first
Now it’s the German’s turn
Because you are the police “force”
All forms of terror are permissible
You threaten an insult him
You seize his passport
You prevent any contact with the refugees.
Nastily and brutally
You drag him to your office
The arrests go on
The interrogations go on
He rejoins the ranks of the journalists-humanists
Chase away the foreignor
Chase away those who seek to help us (benefactors?)
Why do you hurt them?
Why do you mistreat them?
Why do you arrest them?
Simply because they defend humanity.